noirges: (ღ on a balcony in the summer air)
yves just yves ([personal profile] noirges) wrote 2025-03-27 06:11 pm (UTC)

... I know.

[ and yves does understand, because he has been trying. ]

It's... interesti— [ a beat ] No, it's tough. [ he'll choose the correct word for what he's feeling, rather than the casual one ] It's difficult and frustrating.

Because he can so easily shut people out again. He'll misdirect and lie and I'm worried that if we push too hard, he'll retreat entirely. I've known Monsieur Lucas since I was 13 and I loved him right up to the day that he died. I didn't know this in all my years because he kept is so close to the chest and there was no way of revealing it.

I'll keep trying—but I don't even know when this started. There's so many years of pain. I can love him unconditionally and I do, but I don't know how to get through to him at all when it feels like he barely even tries to listen to me.

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