[ . . . smiles softly and nods ]

I know. It's why I asked for you to feel angry on Adolphe's behalf for me.

[ sometimes he wishes he could be a person who could feel those things. ]

You're not wrong. I just don't know how to change who I am anymore.

[ he shattered his own brain and emotional processing in the face of trauma and then put it together desperately once already, he's not sure if he can do it again ]