[ he makes a soft noise of acknowledgement. this is probably true. there's a lot of things that yves can't feel anymore, but it's fine if grief is one because it's so tied to love. ]
[ it takes him a second, but he does gather himself again. the grief comes and goes, the emotions sweeping him up with it. ]
... I know.
I just... want to be where he is.
[ such a simple, petulant complaint that no one can truly answer. but there's always been something about adolphe that makes yves so terribly demanding for once, instead of generous. ]
Of course. I don't think anybody would begrudge you for wanting to be with your friend over a group of people you've known a week. I know, I know, you care all the same, but.
[ still. ]
You would be missed, and I know that Lucas, at the very least, would prefer you to be where he can reach.
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... I'm sorry too. [ softly ]
I'll be better tomorrow.
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[ gentle, gentle. he knows how to be, when he needs to. ]
You know that you have many to support you, and everyone will understand that you need time to breathe. You are loved, as well.
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loved, is it?
softly, and voice a little rougher as he fights back another wave of tears: ]
... I'm lucky. Thank you.
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he pets gently at yves's hair, letting him settle. he doesn't mind if he cries - it really is better that someone does, because jiaoqiu can't do it. ]
Of course.
I know it barely brings any relief, but his soul isn't gone. Just missing. It will be found. I believe that.
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... I know.
I just... want to be where he is.
[ such a simple, petulant complaint that no one can truly answer. but there's always been something about adolphe that makes yves so terribly demanding for once, instead of generous. ]
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[ he has people like that too. feixiao, moze. jing yuan, to an extent. ]
I'd like it if you'd hold on, though. Stay with us, and forgive my selfishness. [ just... in case. ]
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Adolphe just scolded me this week for being reckless... I don't want to scare anyone.
[ if he doesn't know that for certain he's going to wherever adolphe is, if he soul is lost, then he won't risk it. but. ]
... and I don't want anyone to think it's because... I don't care about you all.
[ about people left behind. ]
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[ still. ]
You would be missed, and I know that Lucas, at the very least, would prefer you to be where he can reach.
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[ he nods, understanding ]
... and I'd miss you all too. I just...
[ there's so much to consider. apples that people might want. the fact that yves's home is in shambles. how he doesn't think he deserves heaven. ]
There's a lot in my head. [ a beat ] ... Adolphe was normally really good at knocking sense into me.
[ he's at least self-aware ]
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Well. I'm no Adolphe, but I don't mind trying, if you'd like to unravel the mess.
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... I think I'd just like to know why.
Why Adolphe, for what reason... The apples? Or is it like what happened with Jing Yuan, and someone's not themselves?
I'd like to know for Brimstone too, of course...
[ but he's going to be more useful for one case than the other, just by nature of knowing someone for years ]