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[ jacopo is constantly the meme of i am the most normal guy in this group of fucks even though his mind is fragmented ]
I've tried broaching the topic multiple times and I can tell deep down he's struggling, but he can't make it past... The silence that he's using as an armor.
[ He isn't even sure why he's talking about it. Just groaning as he drags a hand down his face. ]
I've tried broaching the topic multiple times and I can tell deep down he's struggling, but he can't make it past... The silence that he's using as an armor.
[ He isn't even sure why he's talking about it. Just groaning as he drags a hand down his face. ]
At first, I thought it would be fine, but... It would be irresponsible of him to leave Nadia behind just because he wants to keep swinging his halberd around for people parading their goal to be under god's holy banner.
[ Ultimately, that is what matters to him. Children need support... And I guess he likes Lucas enough. It's hard to say sometimes. ]
... He's part of this organization disguised as a hospital that is making advancements in medicine while using Relivers as test subjects. They cover Nadia's treatments. He also takes medication? For his condition? I honestly think they're drugs.
[ ... ]
I don't think I'm a person who could help him.
[ Ultimately, that is what matters to him. Children need support... And I guess he likes Lucas enough. It's hard to say sometimes. ]
... He's part of this organization disguised as a hospital that is making advancements in medicine while using Relivers as test subjects. They cover Nadia's treatments. He also takes medication? For his condition? I honestly think they're drugs.
[ ... ]
I don't think I'm a person who could help him.
[ hmmm ]
... you do know a bit more than I do already, Jacopo. I think he's intentionally tried to keep me blind for a really long time.
[ thoughtful. drugs, huh. ]
He shouldn't need medication anymore. This is heaven and he said that he's not afflicted by the curse any longer.
... you do know a bit more than I do already, Jacopo. I think he's intentionally tried to keep me blind for a really long time.
[ thoughtful. drugs, huh. ]
He shouldn't need medication anymore. This is heaven and he said that he's not afflicted by the curse any longer.
[ yea
he gets that ]
I can try. [ it's all he ever does ] The fact that he's still taking something makes me worried. He shouldn't have to, so I wonder if... if it really is something to muddle his mind.
[ a beat ]
That'd make some sense, even if I don't like admitting it...
he gets that ]
I can try. [ it's all he ever does ] The fact that he's still taking something makes me worried. He shouldn't have to, so I wonder if... if it really is something to muddle his mind.
[ a beat ]
That'd make some sense, even if I don't like admitting it...
... I don't know if he'll tell me.
[ looks frustrated again ]
But... if something's muddling his mind... I don't know. It feels like he's so reasonable and can talk to me about all sorts of things and our problems, except... he gets really stuck on certain things.
Unfortunately, those certain things can decide the fate of our home and whether it has a future.
[ looks frustrated again ]
But... if something's muddling his mind... I don't know. It feels like he's so reasonable and can talk to me about all sorts of things and our problems, except... he gets really stuck on certain things.
Unfortunately, those certain things can decide the fate of our home and whether it has a future.
[ looks thoughtful... ]
If you want to, but... I do appreciate your relationship with Monsieur Lucas, Jacopo. I think he can understand that you care about him, so it might be really meaningful.
I just hope you don't feel responsible or anything for him.
[ how do you help another madman.... ]
If you want to, but... I do appreciate your relationship with Monsieur Lucas, Jacopo. I think he can understand that you care about him, so it might be really meaningful.
I just hope you don't feel responsible or anything for him.
[ how do you help another madman.... ]
Edited 2025-03-27 08:16 (UTC)
... Shouldn't we be trying harder?
[ Because despite being a madman, wrapped in his own ghosts, solitude, and the distance he sets, Jacopo cares so deeply. He's a man who begets undying devotion, everlasting love, but there is nowhere for it to go when you have no one and seldom let anyone in.
So as Lucas' friends—he wouldn't call himself that still, he hasn't forgiven him, still heavily traumatized as he is—shouldn't they be trying? ]
It feels like he's trapped within himself when I look at him.
[ Because despite being a madman, wrapped in his own ghosts, solitude, and the distance he sets, Jacopo cares so deeply. He's a man who begets undying devotion, everlasting love, but there is nowhere for it to go when you have no one and seldom let anyone in.
So as Lucas' friends—he wouldn't call himself that still, he hasn't forgiven him, still heavily traumatized as he is—shouldn't they be trying? ]
It feels like he's trapped within himself when I look at him.
... I know.
[ and yves does understand, because he has been trying. ]
It's... interesti— [ a beat ] No, it's tough. [ he'll choose the correct word for what he's feeling, rather than the casual one ] It's difficult and frustrating.
Because he can so easily shut people out again. He'll misdirect and lie and I'm worried that if we push too hard, he'll retreat entirely. I've known Monsieur Lucas since I was 13 and I loved him right up to the day that he died. I didn't know this in all my years because he kept is so close to the chest and there was no way of revealing it.
I'll keep trying—but I don't even know when this started. There's so many years of pain. I can love him unconditionally and I do, but I don't know how to get through to him at all when it feels like he barely even tries to listen to me.
[ and yves does understand, because he has been trying. ]
It's... interesti— [ a beat ] No, it's tough. [ he'll choose the correct word for what he's feeling, rather than the casual one ] It's difficult and frustrating.
Because he can so easily shut people out again. He'll misdirect and lie and I'm worried that if we push too hard, he'll retreat entirely. I've known Monsieur Lucas since I was 13 and I loved him right up to the day that he died. I didn't know this in all my years because he kept is so close to the chest and there was no way of revealing it.
I'll keep trying—but I don't even know when this started. There's so many years of pain. I can love him unconditionally and I do, but I don't know how to get through to him at all when it feels like he barely even tries to listen to me.
... Proust is already broken, Yves, and he's denying it. If he retreats, then you break him into pieces.
[ The voices are loud again, starting with the lord. You are cruel to your core! Cornering a man with a frayed mind who has found a haven in the silence, in stillness! Are you anticipating the thrill of seeing someone succumb like you?
Then him, but when he was a better man, ... Haven't you ruined enough? It would have been better if god didn't bring us here. We could have returned to nothing, instead of... This. ]
Then piece him back together.
[ Because no one has done that for him, except for one single piece he has held onto so tightly. ]
[ The voices are loud again, starting with the lord. You are cruel to your core! Cornering a man with a frayed mind who has found a haven in the silence, in stillness! Are you anticipating the thrill of seeing someone succumb like you?
Then him, but when he was a better man, ... Haven't you ruined enough? It would have been better if god didn't bring us here. We could have returned to nothing, instead of... This. ]
Then piece him back together.
[ Because no one has done that for him, except for one single piece he has held onto so tightly. ]
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