... Thanks. [ He still feels extremely bad about how everything went, but he's not the type to wallow in self-pity. ] I'll do my best to be there for you, too.
Speaking of which, how are you feeling? I didn't expect anyone would target you.
[ Even though he knows there's no logic when you're possessed. ]
[ nuzzles into claude's hair affectionately when he leans back..... stupid ]
You already always were... I missed you a lot.
[ he is SO needy ]
I'm okay. Better now than I was last night, with you and the others. [ and he does sound sincere about this. also to him it was last night but it was technically friday midnight again ] I think everyone else gets more upset about what happens to me than I do... which is the part I feel bad about.
It's... hard to say if it's entirely better. There's people I'm going to miss either way. [ his lucas... his shadowheart and anders and laurence and (goes down the rest of the game) ]
... but I think I still haven't gotten much better at handling mourning myself, despite fussing at you about it.
Or so I'm told. I haven't spoken to her in detail. [ Gently ruffling his hair. ] I'm not surprised you find her sweet. When don't you think positively of people?
[ to know that they talk, and then for that information to make it to the other side, and that they'll try to kill you before confirming if you're possessed
That's right. Logically, I know they were only doing what they thought was best.
[ Since he never told anyone the truth. He knows that he only has himself to blame, but... ]
But... I can't help but feel like I'm surrounded by people who wanted me to die, regardless of whether it was for a good reason. It's not a place I enjoy being.
How you feel doesn't always line up with what you logically know. Sometimes the head and heart end up at odds with each other that way. [ softly, understanding. there's no point in lecturing claude about it when he already seems to have the objective picture. ]
It must be scary... and hard to believe in anyone, even if you called them friends before. Maybe especially then.
[ and it's not something yves knows how to solve, when it's just picking at old traumas ]
... just a few more weeks, right? And... I'll always look out for you, if you can bring yourself to trust me.
I trust you, too. And I don't trust everyone I love. [ so he hopes that means something. ] I really don't think you'll be in any danger anymore but... I'll do everything I can to keep you safe anyway. Even if you insist you can't be saved.
[ sorry he sneaks in that last sentence because that letter was so edgey. weirdo ]
Do you want me to do anything else? Can I help in any other way...?
... It already means a lot to me that you'd offer, because I wouldn't think to ask. [ because he's so used to just giving pieces of himself away and not asking for anything in return. ] But I already told you I love you, so isn't it natural that I'd want to stay with you?
[ sneaks another quick kiss to claude's cheek, sweet just so sweet ]
I'm low maintenance, I think. I feel better just knowing that you're safe and willing to try to be more open with me. But if I think of something, I'll ask.
[ he already knows claude can't grant him what he wants most, so it's just figuring out something else besides that ]
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... Thanks. [ He still feels extremely bad about how everything went, but he's not the type to wallow in self-pity. ] I'll do my best to be there for you, too.
Speaking of which, how are you feeling? I didn't expect anyone would target you.
[ Even though he knows there's no logic when you're possessed. ]
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You already always were... I missed you a lot.
[ he is SO needy ]
I'm okay. Better now than I was last night, with you and the others. [ and he does sound sincere about this. also to him it was last night but it was technically friday midnight again ] I think everyone else gets more upset about what happens to me than I do... which is the part I feel bad about.
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Well, normally people don't like to see the ones they care about get hurt.
[ Silly. ]
I'm not sure how I feel about this being better for you... But I suppose there are people you've wanted to see a long time on this side.
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... but I think I still haven't gotten much better at handling mourning myself, despite fussing at you about it.
[ he's so bad at letting go ]
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[ Parroting his words. ]
And if you need space to process what you feel, Lailah's great for that.
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You replaced me already....
I do like Lailah, though. She's been sweet in our letters.
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Or so I'm told. I haven't spoken to her in detail. [ Gently ruffling his hair. ] I'm not surprised you find her sweet. When don't you think positively of people?
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I have my limits, but no one here has gotten anywhere near them. [ no one is cartoonishly insanely evil ]
I heard you've been keeping to yourself... Can I ask why?
[ there's plenty of possible reasons but honestly might as well hear them from claude ]
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I don't trust anyone here.
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.... because of Ellie's letters?
[ to know that they talk, and then for that information to make it to the other side, and that they'll try to kill you before confirming if you're possessed
that's
a ride ]
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[ Since he never told anyone the truth. He knows that he only has himself to blame, but... ]
But... I can't help but feel like I'm surrounded by people who wanted me to die, regardless of whether it was for a good reason. It's not a place I enjoy being.
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How you feel doesn't always line up with what you logically know. Sometimes the head and heart end up at odds with each other that way. [ softly, understanding. there's no point in lecturing claude about it when he already seems to have the objective picture. ]
It must be scary... and hard to believe in anyone, even if you called them friends before. Maybe especially then.
[ and it's not something yves knows how to solve, when it's just picking at old traumas ]
... just a few more weeks, right? And... I'll always look out for you, if you can bring yourself to trust me.
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[ Even if sometimes he becomes jittery and paranoid. They're usually just momentary lapses. ]
And... I understand well enough to know when I'm in the wrong, so I'll still cooperate as much as I can to get out of here.
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I trust you, too. And I don't trust everyone I love. [ so he hopes that means something. ] I really don't think you'll be in any danger anymore but... I'll do everything I can to keep you safe anyway. Even if you insist you can't be saved.
[ sorry he sneaks in that last sentence because that letter was so edgey. weirdo ]
Do you want me to do anything else? Can I help in any other way...?
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I should be asking you that after the grief I caused you. I don't feel like I've apologized enough for it.
[ Really. It's one thing for him to get killed because of his choices, but he didn't want to cause anyone else any hardship. ]
I am grateful that you'd stay with me after everything, but... Let me know. If there's anything I can do.
[ It'd mostly ease his own conscience. ]
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yves just smiles at that, expression softening. ]
... It already means a lot to me that you'd offer, because I wouldn't think to ask. [ because he's so used to just giving pieces of himself away and not asking for anything in return. ] But I already told you I love you, so isn't it natural that I'd want to stay with you?
[ sneaks another quick kiss to claude's cheek, sweet just so sweet ]
I'm low maintenance, I think. I feel better just knowing that you're safe and willing to try to be more open with me. But if I think of something, I'll ask.
[ he already knows claude can't grant him what he wants most, so it's just figuring out something else besides that ]
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How can you be low maintenance and greedy?
[ HMMMM?
Looks him over. ]
Do you want to get cleaned up? I can give you some clothes for now.
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Because I know what I want from you, and I'll always ask for more of your attention, but I know there's a stopping point.
[ he has no problem flirting and sparing a kiss here and there but he doesn't actually want claude to feel obligated to love him or anything ]
But that'd be nice, thanks.
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Right. You can shower. I'll put some clothes on the sink for you.