[ he shakes his head slightly even though he doesn't actually separate from claude's shoulder, and the alcohol makes the words flow easier. he looks down at his ship notes, and doesn't dare to write his own name anywhere ]
I do want to be loved. I want it more than almost anything.
But it's never come easily for me. I'm probably difficult to love.
[ not the angy... yves looks a little surprised, but now worried... reaches to hold onto claude's hand? ]
Do you think that makes you petty...?
I think it's more reasonable to be upset... You're right that it's not fair for someone to be judged on things outside of their control. I think your heart is the one that's right.
I think... you're talking to me, but sometimes you're also talking to you. And... if you've suffered yourself anything like I have then...
I just wanted to say I'm sorry that happened. And you didn't deserve it. You're a lot more articulate when you comfort me, so I'm sure my attempt pales in comparison...
But if I'm not imagining it, then I just wanted to say it.
I'm inviting you [ it's not party games and he's not love arrowed - he does know what he's doing which is exactly why he's a conman ] but I know when to stop.
[ and he'll start to push himself to get up because this thread is from a week ago. just a lil wobbly ]
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I do want to be loved. I want it more than almost anything.
But it's never come easily for me. I'm probably difficult to love.
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Why do you think you're difficult to love?
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[ the only virche with dating history ]
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Well... [ ... ] Relationships are complicated. A lot of people take time to find the right person for them.
[ idk man he doesn't know ]
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yves just smiles faintly at that ]
On my island, we didn't exactly have that much time... if we all died by 23. Or become Relivers, I guess.
But I already told you about my scar... so I can admit that was always the reason why.
[ it's not like yves isn't insanely charming otherwise, whether on purpose or not ]
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That's a stupid reason.
I wish you could feel bad about their lack of intelligence than the hurt they caused.
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and yves just laughs faintly even as he glances up at him ]
Can't I just enjoy the warmth of you defending me?
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Well... I'm not going to tell you to be petty like me.
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Do you think that makes you petty...?
I think it's more reasonable to be upset... You're right that it's not fair for someone to be judged on things outside of their control. I think your heart is the one that's right.
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Being upset is fair, wanting to slip poison into their tea is pretty petty though.
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It's okay to feel strongly.
[ . . . ]
I'm sorry they hurt you so badly.
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What are you talking about?
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I think... you're talking to me, but sometimes you're also talking to you. And... if you've suffered yourself anything like I have then...
I just wanted to say I'm sorry that happened. And you didn't deserve it. You're a lot more articulate when you comfort me, so I'm sure my attempt pales in comparison...
But if I'm not imagining it, then I just wanted to say it.
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You are pretty terrible at holding your liquor.
[ Baby tolerance. ]
But I won't deny you can be perceptive as well.
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[ to see how they react to you. to test the waters and go from there. but yves just gives claude's hand that he'd held captive a squeeze ]
I'm just saying you don't have to forgive anyone. You can hold onto the anger enough for us both. In fact, I'd appreciate it if you could.
But... please don't call it petty. I won't let anyone talk about my friend that way, even if it's yourself.
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I am petty, Yves. But I do try to be better than that.
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he'll just bring claude's hand up so he can press a kiss to the back of it ]
I think you're human, so being petty is fine then if you really insist.
I just also think you're sweeter than you give yourself credit for.
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[ His brain catches up, and he goes tense, but doesn't do anything else. ]
Well, I won't turn down your generous assessment.
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he laughs brightly and then pats claude's hand ]
Okay, okay, I know when to stop.
Maybe Shadowheart's right that you are shy...
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I just think you like to push your luck.
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unabashedly: ]
I just like to be sweet to you.
[ but he doesn't mean to make claude uncomfortable so he will behave ]
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[ conman........ ]
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laughs to himself... ]
I'm inviting you [ it's not party games and he's not love arrowed - he does know what he's doing which is exactly why he's a conman ] but I know when to stop.
[ and he'll start to push himself to get up because this thread is from a week ago. just a lil wobbly ]
Should we go home, Claude?
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Welp, stands up and stretches. ]
Why not. I'm curious to see if Richie will be in bed or not.
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