noirges | yves & marcoh

[ He faces Yves the whole time they talk. Marchao is here btw, giving Yves a curious coo and coming over from where he usually hangs with Shud. He's happy to just sit at his feet while he's visiting. ]

It's as much of a confession as any. She made it sound like it was entirely on Brim.

[ Muttered. ]

... And her probably being a killer again, proves the point.

[ oh yes yves probably waved at shud and marchao when arriving, but he will pick up marchao and put it in his lap to give pets..... marchao doesn't know what horrors yves committed today ]

... I didn't think I'd be too late. [ another pang of guilt. god! no he has to keep it together ]

I told her that I wanted to ask the angels about what happened to people we miss and... I got the answer this morning. After Mizu said that death doesn't have to be painful, and most people seemed to be in agreement...

[ it felt like

that was the time to act ]

[ Yeah this seems logical enough for him. He grimaces a little bit about it but he does nod after a second. Marchao is super happy to be in Yves's lap btw, or as happy as a chao based on Marcoh can be. Just coos and does a small wriggle in place. ]

It would have had to be done. If it had come without the loss of Ali it would have been better but we wouldn't have known for sure.

Now we know that we cannot let any killer escape or else they may do it again.

... We don't hold it against you, Yves. The votes made it clear. I'm not saying you should not feel bad, but try not to punish yourself more than necessary. We still need you here.

[ i love you marchao i would die for you. even yves's emotions soften up a little in fondness as he continues to give the chao some pets...

even if marcoh's last statement gives him some pause. his emotions stutter a little awkwardly. ]

... I think a lot of people are telling me that, and I don't feel regret for what I did exactly. I do think that it was necessary, and I did it because I wanted to save her. It's not the first time I've had to kill one of my friends.

[ though that's probably why he accidentally triggered himself and dissociated a bit ]

But... I think I'm always going to hate myself a little for betraying her trust, even if it felt necessary. I can do something necessary and still think it was cruel.

You can.

[ He won't tell Yves to like. Not. Just don't beat yourself up about it TOO badly. ]

Thanks for telling me.

[ I'm sure we all would've liked to know a little sooner but hey that's water under the bridge now. ]

[ how badly is too badly.... well, he'll make it.

he... nods. a little stiffly and awkwardly like he's still not sure how to interact with people anymore ]

Thanks for listening.

... Try to take it easy, alright? And I'm not mad. Even if you wanted me to be.

... I don't know.

[ he really can't figure it out, when his emotions are a tumble like this. they start to rumble a bit again, now that they've covered the plot basics ]

... but could I stay with you and Monsieur Lucas tonight? Or... until I get things settled with Laurence? Just a sleeping bag on the floor is fine.

Yeah, of course.

Would you rather be alone with him?

[ A familiar face... ]

Ah, no no no.

[ immediate fussing ]

I don't even know how much sleep I'm going to get tonight I just...

If I sleep outside, I'm just gonna get scolded more and Laurence will only feel guiltier if he found out...

[ so he will try to make it back inside in the familiarity of his favorite people's room ]

Alright.

[ He's welcome to stay in a blanket pile in their weird ass room where Lucas cries at night and sometimes Marcoh just gets him a glass of water to put on his bedside so he can rehydrate in the morning... ]

We'll get something going with blankets.

[ sure that sounds about right for this weird heckin room ]

I have blankets and pillows from when I bring them around during curfew. It should be okay.

Thanks for letting me impose. I'll try to make sure it doesn't last long.

[ Looks at my clock and then at you like ?

Anyway. ]

You're not imposing.

[ A beat pause as he seems to think, and then he just. Suddenly reaches over and noogies Yves a bit. ]

[ i was trying so hard to clear my inbox

but honestly? he startles. there is a very sharp feeling of surprise and uncertainty, even as he ducks a little bit under the noogie ]

Marcoh?

[ and then just the smallest barely there sliver of hope ]