To look for someone's soul just to see them again, to make sure that she knows you care about her, even if it's the last thing that you intend to do with the last of your consciousness.
I accept being told no, but I think I'd also love into death and even when my soul makes it to Hades. [ sometimes you get so insane about love as a natural part of who you are ]
So I hope you succeed. Maybe try writing God to see if they can help you find her? If that's where you want to be.
[ If only he knew that he is also so dogged about love that he will love the same people across different reincarnations because his soul is so attached, but he doesn't. He thinks he could, though... Only because of how strongly he feels and he can't really imagine anything else in that regard.
He will keep that inside. ]
I'll see about it at the end of this. I don't want to focus too far ahead.
... I'm going to talk to Monsieur Lucas this week. About everything. I heard that even if we die, we come back, so hopefully it won't be a big deal if he lashes out at me, though I'll try to avoid it.
[ but this is as safe a place as any to confront a serial killer ]
But when I think about where to go after this... it really seems like everyone's going through different struggles. I wanted to go with Claude, but Adolphe has his reservations, so...
I'm going to be as gentle as I can be, but I also don't know what the results of a fractured mind and superstrength will be.
[ to be honest.
but, ]
Claude is embroiled in the middle of a war... so I think that's the biggest one. There's a couple of other peaceful places to think about but... to be honest, I think Adolphe would just be happiest somewhere with a farm and a simple life. So a big modern city might be hard...
Ah, well, it's still something we both need to talk about. [ he's just brainstorming out loud ] But if you have any suggestions, I'm all ears.
[ Him thinking to himself Lucas hasn't killed him again yet and there's even less likely chance for Yves to die, but damn. Doesn't like that. Guesses it's fine. ]
Be careful and have people close by.
[ Just in case. ]
Claude's nation being embroiled in war doesn't mean the rest of his world is... Unfortunately, you may find many nations at war no matter where you go or whatever time period.
A simple life does sound like Adolphe.
I don't really have a suggestion since I'm not looking myself... [ Therefore... Nothing. ] I've only known the city I ruled and a home I haven't returned to, just dreamed of.
[ with a smile that is both gentle and confident! i hope yves gets his head exploded again ]
But... that's true. I don't think life is meant to be perfect, even if we return to it. As long as we don't return to our country, I do think anything can be better... [ but if you love someone, don't you want the best for them? is a thought that's broadcasted when he doesn't realize ]
You don't want to go back to your city at all? After you find Morgana. There's no version of events where you can be together peacefully...?
No, I don't. I find it difficult to picture a life for us after all that has happened and erasing it would not mean it never happened.
She died... Hating me with all of her heart. It may last all eternity.
[ Jacopo has an eternal cross to bear where he isn't comfortable just... Undoing everything. Not crazy enough for that, apparently, even if he thought about it. ]
[ the way that previous pcs at least let yves be somewhat prepared for this conversation though he looks surprised at both the information about morgana and then
this question ]
Yes. He's really bad about leaving stuff out, huh?
[ well it's not like it was vital information but yves has his own bone to pick with adolphe when he's not right out of the cyoa mines ]
We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to.
[ given how quickly jacopo left when his memory was revealed... ]
[ Not that it changes how I feel about him. I don't think anything will. It is unfortunately a lot and so much with how he is, but he's fine and well with how everything is. ]
[ NOT THIS!!! NOT MY JACOPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAA PERMAKILLS YVES IN THE GRAVEYARD
but unfortunately, he is still so loving! his brain chemistry has been rewired, but he is still so abundantly adoring even now. so he smiles fondly at both the words said aloud and the thoughts. jacopo you are.... a good ]
Thank you.
And thank you for loving him. I hope you got through to him and his thick skull a little bit about what he deserves.
[ he genuinely wishes it could've worked out between them, but... he thinks saying so aloud would be more cruel than kind, even if it's true ]
[ I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU FIND THIS SURPRISING WHEN IT'S PREDICTABLE i have been waiting for my rejection since w1 ]
I think he'd have to be extremely obtuse. I said... A lot of things. He took it all quite well. It was a bit surprising.
[ Embarrassing things to think back to, but he poured it all in and felt no shame at the time. Maybe in another life, he'll choose me. I have all the time in the world to wait. Some day, one day...
It's impossible to be heartbroken when you're still in love with someone in this kind of way. He will just wait forever like the dog he is.
Still, how dare you love again? ]
I have no plans to get between you two or anything of the sort.
[ he doesn't mean it in a mean way at all but yves does say without missing much of a beat: ]
I didn't think you did, and I don't think you could.
[ adolphe has literally beat into his head how loved he is, so he thinks that showing any type of uncertainty now would be an insult to that. ]
But I do hope that you get what you want, whether with Adolphe or Morgana. [ and he means this just as sincerely as anything else ] I've said it a few times this week in a couple different contexts but... I think that love is the only truly limitless thing. It's plentiful and there is always more of it to find, if given the time and room to blossom.
[ yves is sooooo poly friendly he'd be down to share with jacopo especially with a love this meaningful and romantic but he cannot meddle any longer.... ]
I do wish for your happiness, Jacopo. You're my friend.
[ Unfortunately, Jacopo is anti-poly. Too insecure and probably jealous of a person. He doesn't know the latter part.
He doesn't take any offense to it. Frankly, he didn't see himself having a chance, even if he was told he was loved. ]
You should be wishing to be with Adolphe forever.
[ For all eternity, because that's what he thinks Adolphe deserves. Everlasting pure devotion. He shouldn't be anywhere in this equation if it involves Adolphe, who is taken by the very person saying this. Morgana... Will always be complicated.
Happiness is so distant, has been for years, so he doesn't respond back. Right of him because he will go through a fated cycle of tragedies. ]
[ of course he wants to be with adolphe forever—like he said, he's the type to love into death and beyond. it's a little easier for him to understand his own feelings, how desperate he felt when adolphe died again in heaven and even before souls were safe, yves thought about following him.
sometimes you are just so insane about love and that's how it works out. he does think that this is the type of devotion that adolphe deserves.
he just doesn't see why more than one person can't love adolphe this way. it's clearly already happening! oh well. monogamy kills. ]
... can I still ask you about Morgana? I'm never sure I got the full story.
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[ that's.... ROMANCE!!!!!!! ]
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[ it is very awkward for him to be told all of this when he's trying to be resigned to his fate. ]
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[ he smiles a little ]
I accept being told no, but I think I'd also love into death and even when my soul makes it to Hades. [ sometimes you get so insane about love as a natural part of who you are ]
So I hope you succeed. Maybe try writing God to see if they can help you find her? If that's where you want to be.
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He will keep that inside. ]
I'll see about it at the end of this. I don't want to focus too far ahead.
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[ he does curl up though, bringing his knees to his chest and letting his head rest atop them ]
I just want to make sure you're okay after all this.
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[ He's resigned to his choice, even if it may seem like ego death to many. He's stubborn in that way, too. ]
You should worry about yourself and your friends from home.
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[ but this is as safe a place as any to confront a serial killer ]
But when I think about where to go after this... it really seems like everyone's going through different struggles. I wanted to go with Claude, but Adolphe has his reservations, so...
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[ He really doesn't think it's necessary, but he guesses Lucas did kill him and it has left him with reopened metaphorical scars. ]
Anywhere could be better than an island you can't leave. What reservations would there be?
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[ to be honest.
but, ]
Claude is embroiled in the middle of a war... so I think that's the biggest one. There's a couple of other peaceful places to think about but... to be honest, I think Adolphe would just be happiest somewhere with a farm and a simple life. So a big modern city might be hard...
Ah, well, it's still something we both need to talk about. [ he's just brainstorming out loud ] But if you have any suggestions, I'm all ears.
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Be careful and have people close by.
[ Just in case. ]
Claude's nation being embroiled in war doesn't mean the rest of his world is... Unfortunately, you may find many nations at war no matter where you go or whatever time period.
A simple life does sound like Adolphe.
I don't really have a suggestion since I'm not looking myself... [ Therefore... Nothing. ] I've only known the city I ruled and a home I haven't returned to, just dreamed of.
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[ with a smile that is both gentle and confident! i hope yves gets his head exploded again ]
But... that's true. I don't think life is meant to be perfect, even if we return to it. As long as we don't return to our country, I do think anything can be better... [ but if you love someone, don't you want the best for them? is a thought that's broadcasted when he doesn't realize ]
You don't want to go back to your city at all? After you find Morgana. There's no version of events where you can be together peacefully...?
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She died... Hating me with all of her heart. It may last all eternity.
[ Jacopo has an eternal cross to bear where he isn't comfortable just... Undoing everything. Not crazy enough for that, apparently, even if he thought about it. ]
Are you two together?
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this question ]
Yes. He's really bad about leaving stuff out, huh?
[ well it's not like it was vital information but yves has his own bone to pick with adolphe when he's not right out of the cyoa mines ]
We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to.
[ given how quickly jacopo left when his memory was revealed... ]
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He was being kind to me.
[ Not that it changes how I feel about him. I don't think anything will. It is unfortunately a lot and so much with how he is, but he's fine and well with how everything is. ]
Congratulations.
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but unfortunately, he is still so loving! his brain chemistry has been rewired, but he is still so abundantly adoring even now. so he smiles fondly at both the words said aloud and the thoughts. jacopo you are.... a good ]
Thank you.
And thank you for loving him. I hope you got through to him and his thick skull a little bit about what he deserves.
[ he genuinely wishes it could've worked out between them, but... he thinks saying so aloud would be more cruel than kind, even if it's true ]
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I think he'd have to be extremely obtuse. I said... A lot of things. He took it all quite well. It was a bit surprising.
[ Embarrassing things to think back to, but he poured it all in and felt no shame at the time. Maybe in another life, he'll choose me. I have all the time in the world to wait. Some day, one day...
It's impossible to be heartbroken when you're still in love with someone in this kind of way. He will just wait forever like the dog he is.
Still, how dare you love again? ]
I have no plans to get between you two or anything of the sort.
[ To be clear. ]
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I didn't think you did, and I don't think you could.
[ adolphe has literally beat into his head how loved he is, so he thinks that showing any type of uncertainty now would be an insult to that. ]
But I do hope that you get what you want, whether with Adolphe or Morgana. [ and he means this just as sincerely as anything else ] I've said it a few times this week in a couple different contexts but... I think that love is the only truly limitless thing. It's plentiful and there is always more of it to find, if given the time and room to blossom.
[ yves is sooooo poly friendly he'd be down to share with jacopo especially with a love this meaningful and romantic but he cannot meddle any longer.... ]
I do wish for your happiness, Jacopo. You're my friend.
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He doesn't take any offense to it. Frankly, he didn't see himself having a chance, even if he was told he was loved. ]
You should be wishing to be with Adolphe forever.
[ For all eternity, because that's what he thinks Adolphe deserves. Everlasting pure devotion. He shouldn't be anywhere in this equation if it involves Adolphe, who is taken by the very person saying this. Morgana... Will always be complicated.
Happiness is so distant, has been for years, so he doesn't respond back. Right of him because he will go through a fated cycle of tragedies. ]
I wish for you the best.
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[ of course he wants to be with adolphe forever—like he said, he's the type to love into death and beyond. it's a little easier for him to understand his own feelings, how desperate he felt when adolphe died again in heaven and even before souls were safe, yves thought about following him.
sometimes you are just so insane about love and that's how it works out. he does think that this is the type of devotion that adolphe deserves.
he just doesn't see why more than one person can't love adolphe this way. it's clearly already happening! oh well. monogamy kills. ]
... can I still ask you about Morgana? I'm never sure I got the full story.
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He plucks some strings. ]
What is there to tell? I cared for her, but I killed her.
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But you love so deeply.
[ just. obviously so. ]
There must have been some extenuating circumstance...
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[ And it has ruined him, really. To his very core, fragmented into pieces. ]
I had sacrificed so much already, so it felt if I yielded then all of the suffering and struggle was for... Nothing.
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