Have you really felt no changes in yourself over the past few weeks? [ a hand goes up ] Not to be accusatory but just... I think it's almost harder to stay the same here.
That's what God said. If your soul is redeemed, and it's supposed to be a culmination of all the little things that have happened here... you can go to another world.
So... the things we do here—it does matter. It's not for nothing. You don't have to lose everyone.
[ he looks thoughtful at that, trying to be sincere ]
... if I'm going to be honest with you, I never liked the idea of being 'better' to begin with. I don't know what it means. I think people are fine as they are. If you were able to exist without any actual regrets or qualms, I don't think that's a problem until you started hurting people.
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It's just that... you seemed so unhappy in your memory.
So I suppose... a version of yourself where you get to be happy, without losing being you.
[ . . . yves will just reach out to place a hand on his shoulder tentatively? ]
How about... a little less upset?
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I know that sometimes, when you're in the thick of it, it can feel impossible to dream of anything getting better. I'll keep hoping for you, but I know it can be hard.
So... how about little steps? A little less upset, and then content, and then maybe, one day or someday, happy.
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I get it. Sometimes I get new ones, but it's almost always about my scar or my death.
[ almost like those are his most relevant memories or something. ]
... I can understand it, though. [ softly ] Not wanting people to leave. Not losing what you had and loved.
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Can I ask... why?
Have you really felt no changes in yourself over the past few weeks? [ a hand goes up ] Not to be accusatory but just... I think it's almost harder to stay the same here.
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What does it even matter? All of this is temporary anyway. [ whatever feelings he might have about people here, it won't matter anymore soon enough ]
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[ . . . ]
Your soul can go with someone you care for, if you don't want to say goodbye.
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What?
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That's what God said. If your soul is redeemed, and it's supposed to be a culmination of all the little things that have happened here... you can go to another world.
So... the things we do here—it does matter. It's not for nothing. You don't have to lose everyone.
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Maybe you don't. There's no way I'm getting "redeemed."
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I talked to God and they said that it sounds like some people have given up on redemption, because of the way everything's worked out...
But... they said we shouldn't. We should still try, and I do think you're among that number.
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[ first of all ]
... and I know that other people have mentioned this to you but... I really don't think you need to be someone perfect or friendly to be redeemed.
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Then what is it, huh? And don't just say "making an effort to be better," because that's a copout answer.
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... if I'm going to be honest with you, I never liked the idea of being 'better' to begin with. I don't know what it means. I think people are fine as they are. If you were able to exist without any actual regrets or qualms, I don't think that's a problem until you started hurting people.
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It's just that... you seemed so unhappy in your memory.
So I suppose... a version of yourself where you get to be happy, without losing being you.
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That's some real wishful thinking. Like that's even possible.
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Why isn't it?
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...it's not who I am. I don't get happy.
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How about... a little less upset?
[ a beat ]
I know that sometimes, when you're in the thick of it, it can feel impossible to dream of anything getting better. I'll keep hoping for you, but I know it can be hard.
So... how about little steps? A little less upset, and then content, and then maybe, one day or someday, happy.
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Don't patronize me.
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... I really do mean every word, Brimstone.
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But the best I can ever hope for is survival. Nothing more, nothing less.
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Then let's start with survival.
Can't survive without giving redemption a shot, right? Even if it's just trying to figure out how to survive.
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