But I don't even know how to do that - look after other people. The last times I've tried, I...
[ well. it's hard to get the words out, ashamed as he is. ]
I wasn't there for someone when I could've been, and now he's gone. That old lady wouldn't even answer me anymore... and now we're in this weird place. How are we supposed to look after anyone if we're already dead?
[ when he struggles a bit, yves gives him a little reassuring squeeze in the hug. brief, but a little like he's trying to help hold him together. ]
Because it's not over yet. [ softly ]
But it's okay. Really. Or... it'll be okay, eventually. You can take your time to feel everything you need to feel, without worrying about the future right now.
[ softly. mumbled, more than anything, because it's a little embarrassing and he feels kind of childish for needing to be reassured at all. but it's just so much to process. ]
I don't get it. How are you so optimistic about this? It's not like we can back if it's true we died.
[ it is so much to process, especially if you already haven't experienced what seems like 'the outside world'. if all you've ever known is this tower, how can you process death and chaos and such little explanation? ]
Just 'Yves' is okay.
[ he pulls back a little, still keeping his hands on laurence's shoulders but offering up a smile ]
You might think my reasoning is a little simplistic... but I was prepared for death to be fire and brimstone. Or worse, I thought it'd be so, so lonely. [ and that scared him so much more ]
But... this isn't that. And even if things don't make sense, I've gotten to reunite with some people I really wanted to see. I got to meet you, even though I'm sorry the circumstances aren't better.
But we have a roof over our heads and comfy beds and food. So... I'm choosing to be happy about that, before tackling what's next. Because even in life, I didn't always have all these things.
I'm... really glad we aren't here alone. And that you have people you know.
[ still feels a little lonely being so out of his depth without anyone else who even knows what a demiflora is, but they aren't alone, and that's good enough. ]
I guess you're right. The afterlife could be worse.
[ it's not fire and brimstone. it's not even an empty sky void anymore. he shouldn't complain too much just because it's something strange and unlike the tower. ]
What is next? Those "networks" and stuff? Is that working out yet?
A little bit. It's trust building with people, and making allies. I already found someone who wanted to join my handyman guild! [ yaaaay ] And a few people who said they'll share information.
There's a lot of good people here, who all want to get to the same results of everyone flourishing. So I have a bit more faith than usual that things will work out.
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[ well. it's hard to get the words out, ashamed as he is. ]
I wasn't there for someone when I could've been, and now he's gone. That old lady wouldn't even answer me anymore... and now we're in this weird place. How are we supposed to look after anyone if we're already dead?
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Because it's not over yet. [ softly ]
But it's okay. Really. Or... it'll be okay, eventually. You can take your time to feel everything you need to feel, without worrying about the future right now.
I've got you.
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[ softly. mumbled, more than anything, because it's a little embarrassing and he feels kind of childish for needing to be reassured at all. but it's just so much to process. ]
I don't get it. How are you so optimistic about this? It's not like we can back if it's true we died.
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Just 'Yves' is okay.
[ he pulls back a little, still keeping his hands on laurence's shoulders but offering up a smile ]
You might think my reasoning is a little simplistic... but I was prepared for death to be fire and brimstone. Or worse, I thought it'd be so, so lonely. [ and that scared him so much more ]
But... this isn't that. And even if things don't make sense, I've gotten to reunite with some people I really wanted to see. I got to meet you, even though I'm sorry the circumstances aren't better.
But we have a roof over our heads and comfy beds and food. So... I'm choosing to be happy about that, before tackling what's next. Because even in life, I didn't always have all these things.
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I'm... really glad we aren't here alone. And that you have people you know.
[ still feels a little lonely being so out of his depth without anyone else who even knows what a demiflora is, but they aren't alone, and that's good enough. ]
I guess you're right. The afterlife could be worse.
[ it's not fire and brimstone. it's not even an empty sky void anymore. he shouldn't complain too much just because it's something strange and unlike the tower. ]
What is next? Those "networks" and stuff? Is that working out yet?
[ how long do things like that even take ]
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A little bit. It's trust building with people, and making allies. I already found someone who wanted to join my handyman guild! [ yaaaay ] And a few people who said they'll share information.
There's a lot of good people here, who all want to get to the same results of everyone flourishing. So I have a bit more faith than usual that things will work out.