[ listen there's reflective objects and dreamscapes anything can happen
but, oh... not good. the emotions in return are a level of indignant anger, but mostly just a wholehearted sadness. since it's affection week, he'll give him a hug. ]
yves is just a little surprised at that even still, but he'll melt into the hug so easily. he laughs quietly, sadly and tries to be the reassuring one even still— ]
... I'm okay. They got nicer eventually, but...
[ it's still a surprise to be treated so kindly here ]
[ it's not like everyone at anakt was nice, but it was normal, shitty Youths Fighting Youths. he can kind of understand that kids might be cruel when confronted with things they don't understand.
but even for someone who barely comprehends what parents are, he can still tell that's painful. ]
It's not okay, idiot. [ punches his back ] You were just trying to help somebody.
[ why must people endure such horrible nonsense. till's never understood. but at the same time, he understands the importance of having someone out there who cares—it's made a difference at too many junctures of his life and death.
i debated on what to give you but woah mirror shard and yeah. ]
yves is just at startled—and for one, this memory is so wild. what's happening. there's so many flashing lights.
but by the end, he understands enough for those feelings of shock and despair to come through. to see someone you care for so deeply, right at the end—ah, what heartache.
but ah, reliving his death... they were just supposed to be eating sandwiches. he's a little shaky from his initial surprise, but he's had more time than anyone here to cope with dying, so he'll be okay. still, he complains, ]
[ he turns a little squirmy because he's not really used to being handled like this, but he doesn't hate it. ]
...It's a competition. They always kill the loser. [ but it does seem sudden when you're watching a concert and suddenly one of them gets shot in the neck. ] I was more surprised I got to see Mizi...
[ as annoyed as he is with dying, the overwhelming feeling is more relief and guilt that one of his friends survived. at least he didn't die alone? ]
[ well if he doesn't hate it then yves isn't going to let go? or at least even when he pulls back enough to see till's face, his hold shifts so he just holds onto his hands gently instead ]
... she seemed dear to you. [ assumes he got to see their cute lil baby memory too as till was fucking dying ]
I'm... glad you got to see someone who cared for you in your final moments. I hope she's doing well and you don't see her too soon but... that when you do, your next reunion is even warmer.
[ mizi is crashing out and suffering from being the last one alive but he doesn't want her to die either. he looks more distraught thinking about her, but what can you do when you're a deadzo. ]
...Yeah. I hope she hangs in there.
[ his feelings towards mizi are just!!!! a very pure and simple love!!!!!! ]
She still kinda saved me, even if I—well. You know.
[ till!!!! yves lets go of one of till's hands just so that his fingers can card through till's hair gently, just to try to bring him back to the present. soothing? hopefully. ]
... I do. Sometimes you can be saved just by seeing someone you love—by not being alone when you need someone most.
[ he can get a little distance, it's fine! yves just smiles back, gently amused ]
It's not. It's about you and her. [ he's not trying to impose his own values on any of that, because it's till's moment ]
... if I love people, it's just so I hope I can give a little bit of that feeling back. I was loved once, and so it's my turn to share those warm feelings.
[ the way mizi does not love him in the same way at all, but it's never really been about that—there's no dream in him about being together, necessarily. sometimes it's just about love itself. but maybe yves gets that without him having to try and understand and articulate it anyway, the swirl of simple, yet indecipherable emotion.
but also there's appreciation, and that's more in the present. he takes his hand back to flick his forehead with another sniff. ]
[ fine gross they are hugging again. till awkwardly puts his arms around yves and wants to die now. has anyone ever said they love him... his head spins a little. ]
Shut up, Yves!
[ he's feelings are only warm and affectionate though, shy but no less genuine. ]
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but, oh... not good. the emotions in return are a level of indignant anger, but mostly just a wholehearted sadness. since it's affection week, he'll give him a hug. ]
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but
yves is just a little surprised at that even still, but he'll melt into the hug so easily. he laughs quietly, sadly and tries to be the reassuring one even still— ]
... I'm okay. They got nicer eventually, but...
[ it's still a surprise to be treated so kindly here ]
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but even for someone who barely comprehends what parents are, he can still tell that's painful. ]
It's not okay, idiot. [ punches his back ] You were just trying to help somebody.
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... I was. And I don't regret it. I'm glad she's alive, and I still want her to be happy.
What happened to me... I endured it and made it this far so....
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Get used to things being better, then.
[ why must people endure such horrible nonsense. till's never understood. but at the same time, he understands the importance of having someone out there who cares—it's made a difference at too many junctures of his life and death.
i debated on what to give you but woah mirror shard and yeah. ]
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yves is just at startled—and for one, this memory is so wild. what's happening. there's so many flashing lights.
but by the end, he understands enough for those feelings of shock and despair to come through. to see someone you care for so deeply, right at the end—ah, what heartache.
till is getting pulled back into that hug now ]
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but ah, reliving his death... they were just supposed to be eating sandwiches. he's a little shaky from his initial surprise, but he's had more time than anyone here to cope with dying, so he'll be okay. still, he complains, ]
God, this place sucks sometimes.
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... it does. I'm sorry there's pieces of yourself that you have to share when you don't want to.
That seemed... sudden.
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...It's a competition. They always kill the loser. [ but it does seem sudden when you're watching a concert and suddenly one of them gets shot in the neck. ] I was more surprised I got to see Mizi...
[ as annoyed as he is with dying, the overwhelming feeling is more relief and guilt that one of his friends survived. at least he didn't die alone? ]
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... she seemed dear to you. [ assumes he got to see their cute lil baby memory too as till was fucking dying ]
I'm... glad you got to see someone who cared for you in your final moments. I hope she's doing well and you don't see her too soon but... that when you do, your next reunion is even warmer.
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...Yeah. I hope she hangs in there.
[ his feelings towards mizi are just!!!! a very pure and simple love!!!!!! ]
She still kinda saved me, even if I—well. You know.
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... I do. Sometimes you can be saved just by seeing someone you love—by not being alone when you need someone most.
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...This isn't to fuel your crazy mission of loving everyone. [ but it does validate the power of what love can do. ]
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It's not. It's about you and her. [ he's not trying to impose his own values on any of that, because it's till's moment ]
... if I love people, it's just so I hope I can give a little bit of that feeling back. I was loved once, and so it's my turn to share those warm feelings.
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but also there's appreciation, and that's more in the present. he takes his hand back to flick his forehead with another sniff. ]
...Sap.
[ he's feeling better... ]
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till takes his hand back for the little flick and yves just laughs with it, and he closes the distance again to pull till into a hug. you nerd. ]
A sap who loves you, Till.
[ and that is sincere, painfully so. a warm, adoring feeling that comes with no expectations or conditions. ]
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Shut up, Yves!
[ he's feelings are only warm and affectionate though, shy but no less genuine. ]
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[ HOW COULD HE when he is giving till this hug and till is hugging him back and being so sweet about it.... lil weirdo ]
It's true, so I think you deserve to hear it.
[ to know there's just someone who loves him soooo much in no time at all ]