To look for someone's soul just to see them again, to make sure that she knows you care about her, even if it's the last thing that you intend to do with the last of your consciousness.
I accept being told no, but I think I'd also love into death and even when my soul makes it to Hades. [ sometimes you get so insane about love as a natural part of who you are ]
So I hope you succeed. Maybe try writing God to see if they can help you find her? If that's where you want to be.
[ If only he knew that he is also so dogged about love that he will love the same people across different reincarnations because his soul is so attached, but he doesn't. He thinks he could, though... Only because of how strongly he feels and he can't really imagine anything else in that regard.
He will keep that inside. ]
I'll see about it at the end of this. I don't want to focus too far ahead.
... I'm going to talk to Monsieur Lucas this week. About everything. I heard that even if we die, we come back, so hopefully it won't be a big deal if he lashes out at me, though I'll try to avoid it.
[ but this is as safe a place as any to confront a serial killer ]
But when I think about where to go after this... it really seems like everyone's going through different struggles. I wanted to go with Claude, but Adolphe has his reservations, so...
I'm going to be as gentle as I can be, but I also don't know what the results of a fractured mind and superstrength will be.
[ to be honest.
but, ]
Claude is embroiled in the middle of a war... so I think that's the biggest one. There's a couple of other peaceful places to think about but... to be honest, I think Adolphe would just be happiest somewhere with a farm and a simple life. So a big modern city might be hard...
Ah, well, it's still something we both need to talk about. [ he's just brainstorming out loud ] But if you have any suggestions, I'm all ears.
[ Him thinking to himself Lucas hasn't killed him again yet and there's even less likely chance for Yves to die, but damn. Doesn't like that. Guesses it's fine. ]
Be careful and have people close by.
[ Just in case. ]
Claude's nation being embroiled in war doesn't mean the rest of his world is... Unfortunately, you may find many nations at war no matter where you go or whatever time period.
A simple life does sound like Adolphe.
I don't really have a suggestion since I'm not looking myself... [ Therefore... Nothing. ] I've only known the city I ruled and a home I haven't returned to, just dreamed of.
[ with a smile that is both gentle and confident! i hope yves gets his head exploded again ]
But... that's true. I don't think life is meant to be perfect, even if we return to it. As long as we don't return to our country, I do think anything can be better... [ but if you love someone, don't you want the best for them? is a thought that's broadcasted when he doesn't realize ]
You don't want to go back to your city at all? After you find Morgana. There's no version of events where you can be together peacefully...?
No, I don't. I find it difficult to picture a life for us after all that has happened and erasing it would not mean it never happened.
She died... Hating me with all of her heart. It may last all eternity.
[ Jacopo has an eternal cross to bear where he isn't comfortable just... Undoing everything. Not crazy enough for that, apparently, even if he thought about it. ]
[ the way that previous pcs at least let yves be somewhat prepared for this conversation though he looks surprised at both the information about morgana and then
this question ]
Yes. He's really bad about leaving stuff out, huh?
[ well it's not like it was vital information but yves has his own bone to pick with adolphe when he's not right out of the cyoa mines ]
We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to.
[ given how quickly jacopo left when his memory was revealed... ]
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yves will listen contentedly though when the song ends he will also politely clap ]
It sounds good, Jacopo. Trying to unwind?
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He lifts his gaze. Playing doesn't seem to unwind him enough. ]
I suppose. Distractions and all.
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Would talking about anything help...?
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[ He's going to tune the lute a bit. ]
You can talk about whatever you want.
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Hmm... What do you think you're going to do at the end of all this?
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[ Ultimately, atonement is what he seeks. Is this really safe, well he answers frankly. ]
Whatever happens to my soul after doesn't matter.
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[ thoughtfully ]
Do you know where her soul is...? Are you going back to a place in your own timeline to do that?
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[ As long as I can atone... As long as she knows that I didn't want all of that to happen, I—you made your choices.
And his thoughts quiet for a moment as his attempt to expel the voices. ]
I don't, but I intend to find her. Somehow. Some way.
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You're a really romantic person, Jacopo.
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[ that's.... ROMANCE!!!!!!! ]
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[ it is very awkward for him to be told all of this when he's trying to be resigned to his fate. ]
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[ he smiles a little ]
I accept being told no, but I think I'd also love into death and even when my soul makes it to Hades. [ sometimes you get so insane about love as a natural part of who you are ]
So I hope you succeed. Maybe try writing God to see if they can help you find her? If that's where you want to be.
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He will keep that inside. ]
I'll see about it at the end of this. I don't want to focus too far ahead.
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[ he does curl up though, bringing his knees to his chest and letting his head rest atop them ]
I just want to make sure you're okay after all this.
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[ He's resigned to his choice, even if it may seem like ego death to many. He's stubborn in that way, too. ]
You should worry about yourself and your friends from home.
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[ but this is as safe a place as any to confront a serial killer ]
But when I think about where to go after this... it really seems like everyone's going through different struggles. I wanted to go with Claude, but Adolphe has his reservations, so...
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[ He really doesn't think it's necessary, but he guesses Lucas did kill him and it has left him with reopened metaphorical scars. ]
Anywhere could be better than an island you can't leave. What reservations would there be?
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[ to be honest.
but, ]
Claude is embroiled in the middle of a war... so I think that's the biggest one. There's a couple of other peaceful places to think about but... to be honest, I think Adolphe would just be happiest somewhere with a farm and a simple life. So a big modern city might be hard...
Ah, well, it's still something we both need to talk about. [ he's just brainstorming out loud ] But if you have any suggestions, I'm all ears.
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Be careful and have people close by.
[ Just in case. ]
Claude's nation being embroiled in war doesn't mean the rest of his world is... Unfortunately, you may find many nations at war no matter where you go or whatever time period.
A simple life does sound like Adolphe.
I don't really have a suggestion since I'm not looking myself... [ Therefore... Nothing. ] I've only known the city I ruled and a home I haven't returned to, just dreamed of.
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[ with a smile that is both gentle and confident! i hope yves gets his head exploded again ]
But... that's true. I don't think life is meant to be perfect, even if we return to it. As long as we don't return to our country, I do think anything can be better... [ but if you love someone, don't you want the best for them? is a thought that's broadcasted when he doesn't realize ]
You don't want to go back to your city at all? After you find Morgana. There's no version of events where you can be together peacefully...?
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She died... Hating me with all of her heart. It may last all eternity.
[ Jacopo has an eternal cross to bear where he isn't comfortable just... Undoing everything. Not crazy enough for that, apparently, even if he thought about it. ]
Are you two together?
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this question ]
Yes. He's really bad about leaving stuff out, huh?
[ well it's not like it was vital information but yves has his own bone to pick with adolphe when he's not right out of the cyoa mines ]
We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to.
[ given how quickly jacopo left when his memory was revealed... ]
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