yves & Wiš'adel

[noirges]

yes i copied from the statuses

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[noirges]

[ don't worry wis'adel he got 3 votes!

he laughs ]

I don't. But thank you for telling me. I appreciate the honesty.

[sarkazm]

[IT'S MISALIGNED ON MOBILE BC OF NEV'S NAME I SEE NOW,,,]

Yeah, yeah, whatever.

... I'm not sorry about the rest.

[noirges]

[ ? ]

I know. Why would you be?

[sarkazm]

Look, some people would've expected me to be! Juuust making sure.

[noirges]

[ laughs ]

No, I don't care about that either. You were being thorough.

[sarkazm]

...you could at least be a little annoyed I thought it meant you.

[noirges]

Do you want me to lie to you?

[sarkazm]

I guess not! I still just don't get how your brain works.

[noirges]

Not great.

[ at least he's honest but handwaves they're at the bar now so yves can make them both drinks ]

But it causes you less problems, so isn't that fine?

[sarkazm]

Less problems? Is that how you see it....

[she settles in at a table, meanwhile.]

Make mine strong this time.

[noirges]

[ yves just laughs and nods, putting on his bartending hat ]

Am I wrong? Did you want me to be mad at you?

[sarkazm]

I'd have more of an idea of what to do with it.

[noirges]

Hmm... then I don't think it's bad for you to experience something new from time to time.

[ he'll walk over with their drinks, hers is stronger than his just because he's a lightweight

hands it over and takes a seat next to her ]

[sarkazm]

Little shit.

[she takes a sip of her drink, and slowly exhales.]

What I'm used to-- it's a little more push and pull. I leave my squadmate behind and tell her she's bait, she turns it around and bails on me first, but we both know we can handle each other's shit. That kind of thing. And you...? It's like you can be pushed and pushed at without it mattering at all.

[noirges]

[ smiles a little. he is a little shit. ]

Yeah.

[ he'll just confirm this ]

I'd never leave you behind, but I wouldn't blame you if you did with me. I'd rather protect you. It's not like I want to die—but I don't see a point in holding grudges when you're doing what it takes to survive.

[sarkazm]

This shit is exactly why the 'knight' part made it look like you.

[how. how even.]

[noirges]

[ he laughs in surprise!! but he'll take a sip of his drink ]

I thought I was a little shit?

[ TEASING!!!! ]

... no, I'm just a twisted person in my own way.

[sarkazm]

You can be both!

[hollow knight meet little shit knight.]

I'm not seeing it so far, but all right, I'll bite. Twisted how?

[noirges]

Well... you already know I want to be loved.

[ so there's no problem mentioning it right? especially when he already said that there are things that he can't feel.

she's right. he is hollow. ]

I decided that when I was younger... after I got my scar. I'd try to love everyone, in hopes that maybe one day I could find someone who'd love me back. When I did that...

I discarded anything that would get in the way of that. Anything that could make me harder to love. So anger, spite, contempt... [ he shakes his head ] I don't feel those things anymore.

Though I know I'm abnormal for it. It's why I don't disagree with you.

[ that his brain is bad. that he's crazy. he knows. he's always known. ]

[sarkazm]

You wanted to be loved so badly you just... stamped out parts of yourself completely? It's fine if the person they love isn't the one you originally would've been, just as long as they manage to love you at all?

[she takes a longer sip, mulling over that.]

[noirges]

Selfish, isn't it?

[ he smiles a little bit here, but it's more rueful now. taking a longer sip from his glass ]

And now it feels like I've tricked everyone here into caring about me, even though I know it's not that simple. I don't want to turn away their kindness.

But sometimes... the thought crosses my mind.

[sarkazm]

If that's really how you've made yourself...? I wouldn't call it a trick. To yourself, maybe, but I'm pretty sure you know most of the people here would've cared anyway.

[hell, they fuss over her, and everyone knows what she's like.]

If you ask me, it's more sad than selfish, buuut I don't see love as something worth making yourself less for.

[noirges]

Mm... people really are kind, aren't they?

[ and he is fond of them, and he perks up a little bit again at that. ]

But... it's good that you don't. I like you the way you are. I'd rather that no one end up like me. It's a bit pathetic.

[ a strong word that he can use, because it is about himself. ]

[sarkazm]

I'm not gonna disagree with you.

[hey, he said it, not her.]

You only made it harder on yourself in the end, you know that, right?

[noirges]

Did I?

[ looks thoughtful ]

Maybe. I think I'm difficult to love for a lot of reasons.