[ Marcoh is coming back and he's got your sword. It looks like it's been wiped off at least. Clean. His emotions are kind of a tough scribble ball of noise but upon seeing Yves it's a halfway of them being quashed down but also genuinely it eases just a tiny bit. ]
[ in comparison, yves' bad emotions from trial are a little clearer now that he's not actively dissociating to process what he's done. there's just an overwhelming sense of guilt, failure, and self-hatred. even still, his outward expression is even.
he'll take the sword and nod his appreciation, tying it back at his waist ]
Thanks.
... I'm sorry to have created a situation where it felt like I couldn't be trusted with it.
[ but once he saw uruha unsheathe his own sword, he understood that he was seen as a threat in the room so. ]
It's not that I did not trust you... [ Slowly. And Yves did surrender it first. ] ... Call it being safe. We don't know what is pushing the kills anymore. Just wanted to be sure there would not be more weapons flying.
[ He does try to be somewhat ginger about it but it really was in good part making sure this wasn't sudden mid trial possession. ]
... It had to be done, Yves. I'm sorry that you felt you had to.
[ he does understand, but it's a little hard to say whether or not he really believes what marcoh is saying. he seems to get most of the way there, but he's a little too used to being hated. too accustomed to being feared. ]
... it's okay either way. [ rationally, he gets it regardless. murder is murder. ]
But you don't need to apologize to me. I'm the only one who knew.
[ so he took it upon himself, because he could and was capable. it eats at him a little, but emotionshare is the only thing making that obvious and inconvenient ]
[ Why did my phone suggest Shud after yes. Losing it. Anyway come on in (aki voice) it... it is a room. Yves is free to sit wherever ig since his roomie is Lucas, Marcoh's side is predominantly this fucking king sized bed so that's sitting space. ]
[ he'll walk in then and honestly he normally probably sits on marcoh's bed when he visits, but today he sits on lucas' bed because he's still feeling uncertain about his relationship with (checks notes) everyone.
but he can go into facts pretty easily. his bad vibes mute out so he can get to business. ]
When the mailbox opened, I sent a letter to Brimstone first. I asked him if it was self-defense, because I thought I should at least hear him out. He said I was the first person to ask, and said it wasn't. He said that they both attacked each other, and Samuel was the victor through "luck".
So... I asked her about it yesterday, because I wanted to know the truth. She... was scared and she made me promise not to tell anyone. [ a pang of remorse ] But she said... she didn't know what came over her. She just attacked him, and they fought.
She doesn't know if he was affected too... but that's what happened. She didn't tell me anything else.
[ it's a little barebones but. he was a little busy with emotional comfort at the time ]
[ He faces Yves the whole time they talk. Marchao is here btw, giving Yves a curious coo and coming over from where he usually hangs with Shud. He's happy to just sit at his feet while he's visiting. ]
It's as much of a confession as any. She made it sound like it was entirely on Brim.
[ Muttered. ]
... And her probably being a killer again, proves the point.
[ oh yes yves probably waved at shud and marchao when arriving, but he will pick up marchao and put it in his lap to give pets..... marchao doesn't know what horrors yves committed today ]
... I didn't think I'd be too late. [ another pang of guilt. god! no he has to keep it together ]
I told her that I wanted to ask the angels about what happened to people we miss and... I got the answer this morning. After Mizu said that death doesn't have to be painful, and most people seemed to be in agreement...
[ Yeah this seems logical enough for him. He grimaces a little bit about it but he does nod after a second. Marchao is super happy to be in Yves's lap btw, or as happy as a chao based on Marcoh can be. Just coos and does a small wriggle in place. ]
It would have had to be done. If it had come without the loss of Ali it would have been better but we wouldn't have known for sure.
Now we know that we cannot let any killer escape or else they may do it again.
... We don't hold it against you, Yves. The votes made it clear. I'm not saying you should not feel bad, but try not to punish yourself more than necessary. We still need you here.
[ i love you marchao i would die for you. even yves's emotions soften up a little in fondness as he continues to give the chao some pets...
even if marcoh's last statement gives him some pause. his emotions stutter a little awkwardly. ]
... I think a lot of people are telling me that, and I don't feel regret for what I did exactly. I do think that it was necessary, and I did it because I wanted to save her. It's not the first time I've had to kill one of my friends.
[ though that's probably why he accidentally triggered himself and dissociated a bit ]
But... I think I'm always going to hate myself a little for betraying her trust, even if it felt necessary. I can do something necessary and still think it was cruel.
[ he really can't figure it out, when his emotions are a tumble like this. they start to rumble a bit again, now that they've covered the plot basics ]
... but could I stay with you and Monsieur Lucas tonight? Or... until I get things settled with Laurence? Just a sleeping bag on the floor is fine.
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week 4, post-trial
If you don't trust me with it that's okay
I think I'd just like it by Thursday just to be safe
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I can come get it from you
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coming back to rooms
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and waits back at the manor for marcoh. vibes still bad but he's not crying so that's a win write that down ]
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Here.
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he'll take the sword and nod his appreciation, tying it back at his waist ]
Thanks.
... I'm sorry to have created a situation where it felt like I couldn't be trusted with it.
[ but once he saw uruha unsheathe his own sword, he understood that he was seen as a threat in the room so. ]
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[ He does try to be somewhat ginger about it but it really was in good part making sure this wasn't sudden mid trial possession. ]
... It had to be done, Yves. I'm sorry that you felt you had to.
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... it's okay either way. [ rationally, he gets it regardless. murder is murder. ]
But you don't need to apologize to me. I'm the only one who knew.
[ so he took it upon himself, because he could and was capable. it eats at him a little, but emotionshare is the only thing making that obvious and inconvenient ]
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[ hallway? not a great place. what if the teens overhear and get traumatized again ]
Can we sit down somewhere?
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Where do you want?
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I'd rather not return to mine until Laurence is feeling alright again.
[ he went in to change out of his bloody clothes but that's it ]
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[ Why did my phone suggest Shud after yes. Losing it. Anyway come on in (aki voice) it... it is a room. Yves is free to sit wherever ig since his roomie is Lucas, Marcoh's side is predominantly this fucking king sized bed so that's sitting space. ]
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but he can go into facts pretty easily. his bad vibes mute out so he can get to business. ]
When the mailbox opened, I sent a letter to Brimstone first. I asked him if it was self-defense, because I thought I should at least hear him out. He said I was the first person to ask, and said it wasn't. He said that they both attacked each other, and Samuel was the victor through "luck".
So... I asked her about it yesterday, because I wanted to know the truth. She... was scared and she made me promise not to tell anyone. [ a pang of remorse ] But she said... she didn't know what came over her. She just attacked him, and they fought.
She doesn't know if he was affected too... but that's what happened. She didn't tell me anything else.
[ it's a little barebones but. he was a little busy with emotional comfort at the time ]
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It's as much of a confession as any. She made it sound like it was entirely on Brim.
[ Muttered. ]
... And her probably being a killer again, proves the point.
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... I didn't think I'd be too late. [ another pang of guilt. god! no he has to keep it together ]
I told her that I wanted to ask the angels about what happened to people we miss and... I got the answer this morning. After Mizu said that death doesn't have to be painful, and most people seemed to be in agreement...
[ it felt like
that was the time to act ]
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It would have had to be done. If it had come without the loss of Ali it would have been better but we wouldn't have known for sure.
Now we know that we cannot let any killer escape or else they may do it again.
... We don't hold it against you, Yves. The votes made it clear. I'm not saying you should not feel bad, but try not to punish yourself more than necessary. We still need you here.
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even if marcoh's last statement gives him some pause. his emotions stutter a little awkwardly. ]
... I think a lot of people are telling me that, and I don't feel regret for what I did exactly. I do think that it was necessary, and I did it because I wanted to save her. It's not the first time I've had to kill one of my friends.
[ though that's probably why he accidentally triggered himself and dissociated a bit ]
But... I think I'm always going to hate myself a little for betraying her trust, even if it felt necessary. I can do something necessary and still think it was cruel.
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[ He won't tell Yves to like. Not. Just don't beat yourself up about it TOO badly. ]
Thanks for telling me.
[ I'm sure we all would've liked to know a little sooner but hey that's water under the bridge now. ]
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he... nods. a little stiffly and awkwardly like he's still not sure how to interact with people anymore ]
Thanks for listening.
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[ he really can't figure it out, when his emotions are a tumble like this. they start to rumble a bit again, now that they've covered the plot basics ]
... but could I stay with you and Monsieur Lucas tonight? Or... until I get things settled with Laurence? Just a sleeping bag on the floor is fine.
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Would you rather be alone with him?
[ A familiar face... ]
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[ immediate fussing ]
I don't even know how much sleep I'm going to get tonight I just...
If I sleep outside, I'm just gonna get scolded more and Laurence will only feel guiltier if he found out...
[ so he will try to make it back inside in the familiarity of his favorite people's room ]
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