[ laurence listens in silence, a knot tightening in the pit of his stomach. ]
That... is really strange. [ and probably not healthy? it's a little concerning? ] That you don't feel those things. But wanting to be loved... I don't think that's weird.
[ everyone wants to feel loved. laurence always did, too, but this - is it how iris felt, when he threw that bouquet to the floor and ran away? is it how he felt when laurence drew back in fear of guilt by proximity when iris wouldn't stop using his powers? is that why he made penny? ]
And I think the people here would care about you even if you did feel those things.
[ well. yves does not in agreement, the statement doesn't hurt because it's what he thinks too. that he's weird, twisted, strange, off-putting. as a person, they shouldn't be able to do this but -
he has. ]
... maybe. [ softly ] I do think people here are exceedingly kind and patient.
But I... don't know how to be any other way anymore. [ a little shameful ] Sometimes I want to and sometimes I... don't.
Everyone wishes they could be different sometimes.
[ unfortunate that he's a little too familiar with that, but a little too fearful to really make himself change. ]
It's still who you are now. Whether that's a good or a bad thing... I don't know. But it doesn't change that people still care about you, and they will no matter what.
[ mumbling a little this is a little too honest for a kid who's bad with feelings so he can use everyone else as a shield. it's feels safer to do it that way. ]
[ even if laurence can't really look in the eye while saying something so godawful cheesy. someone kill him next so he doesn't have to say things like this ever again. ]
...I really hope you're not a suspect again next week. You need a break.
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That... is really strange. [ and probably not healthy? it's a little concerning? ] That you don't feel those things. But wanting to be loved... I don't think that's weird.
[ everyone wants to feel loved. laurence always did, too, but this - is it how iris felt, when he threw that bouquet to the floor and ran away? is it how he felt when laurence drew back in fear of guilt by proximity when iris wouldn't stop using his powers? is that why he made penny? ]
And I think the people here would care about you even if you did feel those things.
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he has. ]
... maybe. [ softly ] I do think people here are exceedingly kind and patient.
But I... don't know how to be any other way anymore. [ a little shameful ] Sometimes I want to and sometimes I... don't.
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[ unfortunate that he's a little too familiar with that, but a little too fearful to really make himself change. ]
It's still who you are now. Whether that's a good or a bad thing... I don't know. But it doesn't change that people still care about you, and they will no matter what.
[ mumbling a little this is a little too honest for a kid who's bad with feelings so he can use everyone else as a shield. it's feels safer to do it that way. ]
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yves smiles gently at that and lets his head bonk lightly against laurence's again. he'd love to believe that. ]
Thanks, Laurence. I do feel cared for here. Almost more than I ever have before.
And that is meaningful to me.
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[ even if laurence can't really look in the eye while saying something so godawful cheesy. someone kill him next so he doesn't have to say things like this ever again. ]
...I really hope you're not a suspect again next week. You need a break.