yves eats on instinct even though he's laughing around it. AAAAA. tries to swallow and then laughs ]
I don't know if I ever succeeded! But... I wanted to love them, anyway. That's all.
I still try to care as much as I can for everyone I meet... because you never know what their circumstances are. I don't want anyone to ever feel unlovable like I did.
[ thanks for avoiding a hand-feeding session here, the handholding was already too much. till eases up enough to eat some of his own food, still frowning. ]
Were people that nasty to you back home? You seem surprised they can be nice.
[ listen there's reflective objects and dreamscapes anything can happen
but, oh... not good. the emotions in return are a level of indignant anger, but mostly just a wholehearted sadness. since it's affection week, he'll give him a hug. ]
yves is just a little surprised at that even still, but he'll melt into the hug so easily. he laughs quietly, sadly and tries to be the reassuring one even still— ]
... I'm okay. They got nicer eventually, but...
[ it's still a surprise to be treated so kindly here ]
[ it's not like everyone at anakt was nice, but it was normal, shitty Youths Fighting Youths. he can kind of understand that kids might be cruel when confronted with things they don't understand.
but even for someone who barely comprehends what parents are, he can still tell that's painful. ]
It's not okay, idiot. [ punches his back ] You were just trying to help somebody.
[ why must people endure such horrible nonsense. till's never understood. but at the same time, he understands the importance of having someone out there who cares—it's made a difference at too many junctures of his life and death.
i debated on what to give you but woah mirror shard and yeah. ]
yves is just at startled—and for one, this memory is so wild. what's happening. there's so many flashing lights.
but by the end, he understands enough for those feelings of shock and despair to come through. to see someone you care for so deeply, right at the end—ah, what heartache.
but ah, reliving his death... they were just supposed to be eating sandwiches. he's a little shaky from his initial surprise, but he's had more time than anyone here to cope with dying, so he'll be okay. still, he complains, ]
[ he turns a little squirmy because he's not really used to being handled like this, but he doesn't hate it. ]
...It's a competition. They always kill the loser. [ but it does seem sudden when you're watching a concert and suddenly one of them gets shot in the neck. ] I was more surprised I got to see Mizi...
[ as annoyed as he is with dying, the overwhelming feeling is more relief and guilt that one of his friends survived. at least he didn't die alone? ]
[ well if he doesn't hate it then yves isn't going to let go? or at least even when he pulls back enough to see till's face, his hold shifts so he just holds onto his hands gently instead ]
... she seemed dear to you. [ assumes he got to see their cute lil baby memory too as till was fucking dying ]
I'm... glad you got to see someone who cared for you in your final moments. I hope she's doing well and you don't see her too soon but... that when you do, your next reunion is even warmer.
[ mizi is crashing out and suffering from being the last one alive but he doesn't want her to die either. he looks more distraught thinking about her, but what can you do when you're a deadzo. ]
...Yeah. I hope she hangs in there.
[ his feelings towards mizi are just!!!! a very pure and simple love!!!!!! ]
She still kinda saved me, even if I—well. You know.
[ till!!!! yves lets go of one of till's hands just so that his fingers can card through till's hair gently, just to try to bring him back to the present. soothing? hopefully. ]
... I do. Sometimes you can be saved just by seeing someone you love—by not being alone when you need someone most.
[ he can get a little distance, it's fine! yves just smiles back, gently amused ]
It's not. It's about you and her. [ he's not trying to impose his own values on any of that, because it's till's moment ]
... if I love people, it's just so I hope I can give a little bit of that feeling back. I was loved once, and so it's my turn to share those warm feelings.
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I received a burn when I was younger that scared them...
I didn't want to do anything else that could make them think I was a monster. I wanted to be loved.
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You gotta stand up for yourself sometimes, or people'll just treat you like shit. What kinda love is that?
[ also sometimes you beat a guy up for years and he still loves you. not mutually exclusive. ]
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I do have boundaries where it counts. I don't like being hurt either, and I don't think people like to hurt others.
[ so it's better to stop them sometimes.... ]
... but I think there's love in the way people defend me, even though they barely know me. And I do cherish that.
[ till u are so cute!! ]
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Stop being sappy! I'm speaking generally.
[ boundaries are good though ]
I just don't think it's worth trying to get everyone to like you.
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yves eats on instinct even though he's laughing around it. AAAAA. tries to swallow and then laughs ]
I don't know if I ever succeeded! But... I wanted to love them, anyway. That's all.
I still try to care as much as I can for everyone I meet... because you never know what their circumstances are. I don't want anyone to ever feel unlovable like I did.
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You got a bleeding heart, Yves.
[ till is a tsundere but he's still not this soft... ]
Were people treating you okay over there? [ he assumes so, given their letters. ] I'll beat 'em up instead if they weren't.
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Are you my knight in shining armor, Till? Wow.
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PUSHES ANOTHER SANDWICH INTO HIS FACE ]
Nevermind. Maybe I'll beat you up instead.
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Ahaha! I just thought it was a sweet sentiment!
[ HE'S SO ENDEARED!!!!! ]
But no, I'm lucky... People are kind to me here.
[ and even as he says it, there's a feeling of surprise. even after eight weeks, there's still a little bit of awe ]
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Were people that nasty to you back home? You seem surprised they can be nice.
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a door suddenly opens and there’s a mirror shard coughed out i don’t know
just take it ]
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but, oh... not good. the emotions in return are a level of indignant anger, but mostly just a wholehearted sadness. since it's affection week, he'll give him a hug. ]
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but
yves is just a little surprised at that even still, but he'll melt into the hug so easily. he laughs quietly, sadly and tries to be the reassuring one even still— ]
... I'm okay. They got nicer eventually, but...
[ it's still a surprise to be treated so kindly here ]
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but even for someone who barely comprehends what parents are, he can still tell that's painful. ]
It's not okay, idiot. [ punches his back ] You were just trying to help somebody.
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... I was. And I don't regret it. I'm glad she's alive, and I still want her to be happy.
What happened to me... I endured it and made it this far so....
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Get used to things being better, then.
[ why must people endure such horrible nonsense. till's never understood. but at the same time, he understands the importance of having someone out there who cares—it's made a difference at too many junctures of his life and death.
i debated on what to give you but woah mirror shard and yeah. ]
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yves is just at startled—and for one, this memory is so wild. what's happening. there's so many flashing lights.
but by the end, he understands enough for those feelings of shock and despair to come through. to see someone you care for so deeply, right at the end—ah, what heartache.
till is getting pulled back into that hug now ]
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but ah, reliving his death... they were just supposed to be eating sandwiches. he's a little shaky from his initial surprise, but he's had more time than anyone here to cope with dying, so he'll be okay. still, he complains, ]
God, this place sucks sometimes.
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... it does. I'm sorry there's pieces of yourself that you have to share when you don't want to.
That seemed... sudden.
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...It's a competition. They always kill the loser. [ but it does seem sudden when you're watching a concert and suddenly one of them gets shot in the neck. ] I was more surprised I got to see Mizi...
[ as annoyed as he is with dying, the overwhelming feeling is more relief and guilt that one of his friends survived. at least he didn't die alone? ]
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... she seemed dear to you. [ assumes he got to see their cute lil baby memory too as till was fucking dying ]
I'm... glad you got to see someone who cared for you in your final moments. I hope she's doing well and you don't see her too soon but... that when you do, your next reunion is even warmer.
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...Yeah. I hope she hangs in there.
[ his feelings towards mizi are just!!!! a very pure and simple love!!!!!! ]
She still kinda saved me, even if I—well. You know.
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... I do. Sometimes you can be saved just by seeing someone you love—by not being alone when you need someone most.
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...This isn't to fuel your crazy mission of loving everyone. [ but it does validate the power of what love can do. ]
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It's not. It's about you and her. [ he's not trying to impose his own values on any of that, because it's till's moment ]
... if I love people, it's just so I hope I can give a little bit of that feeling back. I was loved once, and so it's my turn to share those warm feelings.
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