You shouldn't. People offer comfort when they want to. You haven't twisted any of our arms here, Yves.
[He leans his head against the younger man's, gives him a wee pat.]
I hope so too. I think it might be easier to let bygones be bygones, once you're off the hook over here.
...It's okay to feel rotten about it, too, though. We're not asking you to pretend it doesn't hurt. [Because it would. And it does. Taking a life is an existential eclipse, staggering regardless of circumstance or intentions.] We're only asking you show yourself the same forgiveness you spread to everyone else. It wasn't malicious, and it was gonna happen one way or another.
[ . . . it's probably true. it was always going to happen, whenever someone found out. and he just happened to be the first person to find out, and the first person to act. it was sudden because he thinks there is something horrible about watching people decide your fate in front of you when it's the last thing you want. sitting with the betrayal of what had yves had done, instead of the sharp and sudden slice of it.
he doesn't expect forgiveness, but he does know it was necessary. ]
... it's a little different for me. [ he can't forgive himself the way he'd forgive everyone else because he doesn't love himself like he loves everyone else. that's a fact. ] But... I'll at least try to not let it weigh me down too heavily, Monsieur Richie.
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[He leans his head against the younger man's, gives him a wee pat.]
I hope so too. I think it might be easier to let bygones be bygones, once you're off the hook over here.
...It's okay to feel rotten about it, too, though. We're not asking you to pretend it doesn't hurt. [Because it would. And it does. Taking a life is an existential eclipse, staggering regardless of circumstance or intentions.] We're only asking you show yourself the same forgiveness you spread to everyone else. It wasn't malicious, and it was gonna happen one way or another.
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he doesn't expect forgiveness, but he does know it was necessary. ]
... it's a little different for me. [ he can't forgive himself the way he'd forgive everyone else because he doesn't love himself like he loves everyone else. that's a fact. ] But... I'll at least try to not let it weigh me down too heavily, Monsieur Richie.
Just... need some time.