yves & Wiš'adel

[noirges]

yes i copied from the statuses

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[noirges]

I think it should be the latter.

If someone's lived a truly horrible life with difficult circumstances and making decisions that others might not like is the only way to survive...

How can they be held to the same level as someone who had an easier time...?

[sarkazm]

Nobody ever said the world's fair. It usually isn't-- so why would heaven be too much different?

[noirges]

Maybe I was just hoping it would be.

[ it'd be nice but ]

All this to say... if there's anything I can do to help you, Wiš'adel, please let me know. I want you to return to life, but I don't want you to have to sacrifice being you either.

[sarkazm]

Jeez... do you ever do anything that's just for yourself? I'll be fine!

[she exhales a huff, with that. worry less about her!]

It's not like I was going to live a long life anyway, if I don't get to give it another shot.

[noirges]

... it's just because I understand that sentiment a bit, I guess.

And I feel like... people who are more attached to life than I am should get a better shot.

[sarkazm]

Yeah? ...Sickness for you too? Or is it really just that you're that unattached to living?

[noirges]

[ shakes head ]

I died in a battle that I chose to die in, because it was the best way to accomplish my goals. So I killed my friend and he killed me.

But even before that... I've lost pretty much everyone that I've considered a friend. So... it's a little hard to convince myself to go back.

[sarkazm]

Were they really all you were living for? You don't have anything you'd wanna go back for without your friends--?

[noirges]

[ smiles knowingly ]

I'm going to give you an answer and I think you're going to say it's gross...

[sarkazm]

Oh, I should've known.

Fine! Hit me with it anyway!

[noirges]

[ laughs!! ]

I wanted to be loved. I thought I'd try to find someone to love me, but I gave up after a while. [ after all the heartbreak, and he's still given up. hence not looking for dates ]

And... I don't know if that's reason enough for me to try again.

Otherwise, I've fulfilled my family's responsibility and get to accomplish more here than I did on my island... so I don't know if I want to go back.

[sarkazm]

Hang on, hang on. Seriously-- nobody?

[what in the fuck.]

I never thought I'd hear you say something that sad.

[noirges]

[ he just snorts faintly, amused ]

I was lucky enough to receive platonic love, from a few people. Though they're mostly gone now.

But... no. People thought they could love me romantically, and it ended up... not working out.

[sarkazm]

All right, what is it? Secret serial killer past? Some other heinous crime you pulled off by looking like some sweet, innocent guy? It'd have to be something like that, right?

[noirges]

[ huffs a laugh no that's other routes silly wis'adel ]

An abnormal scar that made people think that I'm a puppet of Death, cursed and certainly doomed to harm them.

[sarkazm]

Oh. So everyone where you live is insane! Got it.

[noirges]

[ they are

he laughs a bit ]

I think... they're probably just all doing their best, and don't know how to wrestle with what they don't understand.

[sarkazm]

There you go again, being all forgiving about it! I could get it if they just couldn't deal with the way you never even get mad, but over a scar?

[it's stupid.]

[noirges]

I guess they just weren't thinking as clearly as you are, Wiš'adel.

[ but... he does appreciate it ]

... thanks for saying so anyway.

[sarkazm]

Obviously they weren't!

[huffs. don't thank her for saying something that shouldn't have to be said.

...]

Hey. Can I see?

[noirges]

[ so obviously teasing: ] Do you think you can fall in love with me?

[sarkazm]

Come on. Do you really think I could with anyone?

I've seen worse, I can promise you that. My scars are basically nothing compared to what it can be like.

[a little gesture of her right arm, with its three crystal lines.]

[noirges]

I do. [ with his whole fucking heart ] I really do still think you can fall in love.

[ but he still shakes his head ]

I know that what you're saying is also probably true, but... I'd rather not. Sorry.

[sarkazm]

Don't 'sorry' me. It's yours to deny, isn't it?

[be unapologetic! don't give people shit!! c'mon, man.]

[noirges]

But it made me happy you wanted to know something about me....

[ ok he's being sincere but he's also clearly saying it this sweetly knowing it'll annoy her and it's funny ]